saying “goodbye” 28 March 2009

this is the song that will always bring tears to my eyes. a great love that was lost.

Babe, I’m leaving
I must be on my way
The time is drawing near
My train is going
I see it in your eyes
The love, the need, your tears
But I’ll be lonely without you
And I’ll need your love to see me through
So please believe me
My heart is in your hands
I’ll be missing you

‘Cause you know it’s you, babe
Whenever I get weary
And I’ve had enough
Feel like giving up
You know it’s you, babe
Giving me the courage
And the strength I need
Please believe that it’s true
Babe, I love you

Babe, I’m leaving
I’ll say it once again
And somehow try to smile
I know the feeling we’re trying to forget
If only for awhile
‘Cause I’ll be lonely without you
And I’ll need your love to see me through
Please believe me
My heart is in your hands
‘Cause I’ll be missing you

Babe, I love you

of friendship and broken hearts 28 March 2009

i found out today that my ex-boyfie-turned-male best friend’s marriage didn’t work out. it was annulled just two years after the wedding in january 2003.

i felt immense sadness when i learned about it. all this time, i’d been imagining him to be happily married to a wonderful woman with probably one or two kids already. gah. life can suck sometimes.

i do find it strange, however, that i’ve been thinking about him a lot these past few weeks. and i remember dreaming about him a couple of times last year. but i restrained myself from trying to contact him because i’d promised myself to stay out of the picture. were those dreams signs that he needed me? was i wrong in cutting off all contact from him?

i feel like crying right now. for a marriage that ended. for two broken hearts. for a broken family. for a kid left trying to understand why mama and papa aren’t together anymore. for a friendship that was lost.

i missed having him in my life all these years. he was the soul mate that was not meant to be. he will always be someone who i’ll hold dear to my heart.